Tomorrow will be a week since Amici crossed over the Rainbow. It doesn't seem possible. The first day of going back to work was rough. My morning routine revolved around Amici (bathroom, eating, meds, etc). I was out of sorts all morning on Monday. I did okay until I got in the car. My key chain has Amici on it because he has a picture ID for his microchip. I took one look at that and just bawled. I tried to clean myself up before entering work. I was doing fine until a co worker (who had heard about Amici's passing) asked me how I was and how long Amici had been with us. I couldn't even answer the question. I just began to cry. I went into my office (and thanked God that I had my own office), cried and then pulled myself together as best as I could. I went out to that co worker and apologized for breaking down. Monday was just rough all the way around. The rest of the week was gradually better but when I look back I think it was "better" because I was right out straight at work.
Today was hard. It was my first day off with Aiden by myself. Usually it would be me, Aiden and Amici. We'd do the mundane things (eat, use bathroom, etc.) but then we'd have storytime (when I say "we" I mean the 3 of us), play, Aiden would nap and then I would spend time with Amici. There were times today that I felt like I was boring. I know Aiden can't talk but if he could, I would swear that he was looking for Amici today.
I miss Amici so much. He was such a good dog. He was a true friend and I did so many things with him. When I was pregnant he was so attentive and sweet. He used to kiss my stomach when I would get dressed in the mornings. When I threw up, Amici was by my side. I couldn't have asked for a better pup when Alan & I brought Aiden home. Amici was interested but gentle. He never reacted negatively to Aiden and I love him even more because of that. I really wanted Aiden to grow up with Amici.
Alan & I had previously discussed that when Amici did pass over the Rainbow Bridge, we would probably get a pup for our family soon after. People may be surprised that we are thinking of getting another dog so soon, but for us, it is just too difficult to have all of Amici's things around and not feel totally empty inside. I never thought I would see the day when I would cry when I vacuumed up husky hair.
We are having a female malamute puppy join our family the weekend of the 27th of March. We don't have a name picked out yet. We got to meet her Mom and Dad and liked them an awful lot. Aiden got to meet the little girl puppy and they seemed to like one another.
I hope that folks understand that by no means are we trying to replace Amici. He can't be replaced. There is a huge void in our family right now and the next step for us, is to add another pup to our family. As you know, I love dogs with all of my heart and my hope is that Aiden may share my passion some day (if not, I at least want to instill how important it is to be kind and respectful to dogs/animals). I hope we have your support and well wishes as we embark on a new journey.
Here are some precious pictures of Amici & Aiden:
Oct, 9, 2009 (Aiden isn't even a month old yet)
Aiden- 7 Weeks old Loving Amici
1 month & 1 day old Aiden with his pal Amici
Amici- counter part to Aiden's costume as a monkey. Amici had a banana on his back and he was carting around the chunky monkey ice cream. :)
3months & 2 weeks old Aiden. Amici & Aiden both look up when I snap my fingers. :)
Aiden's 1st Christmas Eve
Jan 23, 2010
First- Rice Cereal. Amici is there to cheer Aiden on (and catch any droppings of course....)
Valentine's Day- sharing secrets
Aiden- 5mths 4wks old. Last photo shoot of the two of them together. Amici loved to kiss Aiden. He even loved it without food involved (like in this shot). This was totally unrehearsed and it shows the kind of friendship they had.